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that hour. That's not very relaxing.
Hustling is one of the most phenomenal
things around. It helps people. Some
people don't have somebody to talk to.
Some people are in a relationship with a
wife and children. They began the
relationship because society told them it
was wrong to be gay. I, or any other
hustler is there to give them sex and
you're allowed to pay for it. It's okay.
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Allen lights a lighter.
My electricity just got turned off
because I haven't paid the bill. I don't
need to have fifty TVs or five cars. I
just want a life that I could be
comfortable with. I want electricity and
I don't want to hustle.
Steven lights a lighter.
Morning calls are people on drugs.
Afternoon calls are people on lunch
breaks. And evening calls, they get a lot
pickier. It's just something about the
Interviewer lights a lighter.
How much money do you have on you right
Like ten dollars and like a dollar fifty
How much money do you have to your name?
Like ten dollars and like a dollar fifty
And how will you eat for the week?
I don't know. Maybe I'll borrow five
bucks from somebody here and from
somebody there. But for this whole week
I won't do any drugs. Maybe I'll smoke
somebody else's pot.
Joe lights a lighter...pretend to smoke a joint...blows out
lighter and in succession the other lighters go out.
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There was this place on the pier where I
met this guy in broad daylight and he
started giving me head then these guys
"Let us watch."
"We never see anything like this at
I was like, "You know in most parts of
the city it would cost you money to see
this." I said, "As long as I hear money
falling through the chain-link fence you
can watch." So they started throwing
change and then they stopped and I
stopped and they were like, "Why?" And I
said, "I don't hear money dropping." So
they started dropping more money.
You gotta get the money first. If you
don't they're gonna fuck you over. And
cops, that's another reason. If I get
the money first, what did I get the money
You say, "Take off your clothes." If
they take off their clothes, they're not
a cop. They are allowed to lie to you.
A lot of escorts think that's entrapment.
It's not. A police officer will ask
"Okay will you get fucked for a hundred
and fifty dollars?"
"You know what, we'll discuss that
later." And if they don't agree to those
terms, they're more than likely a cop.
And then you just walk out.
We are now in a courtroom...Brian plays the rapist...he
stares blankly at Allen.
We went to eat and afterwards went to his
house and he was drinking and doing coke
and stuff like that.
How old was he?
I don't know, I guess about forty or
something like that. He had a beautiful
apartment? Anyway, I guess he had it in
his head in spite of what we discussed
that he was gonna fuck me. And he had
his hand on my throat and he was forcing
my legs up in the air. And we fought. I
think I hit him with something like an
ashtray or a statuette. Then he just
passed out and I took some money out of
his wallet and I ran.
So was there blood?
No, but he was bruised really, really
But he passed out?
Yeah. I mean he was high as it was, so
it wasn't difficult.
How do you know he didn't die?
Oh God, don't say that. He was breathing
when I left.
How do you know he didn't pass out later?
You never heard from him or saw him
You may have killed him.
I hope not. I really hope not.
I pay for sex as much as I get paid for
sex. I think it's the best thing. You
call up the agency and you say today I
want a long guy who has piercings, likes
to fuck and doesn't speak a word of
English. Or the opposite, I want a
transsexual with tits and a dick. It's so
simple and easy. It's so dumb to go to
bars if you're just going to get sex. To
sit there and go through the whole
"Where are you from?"
...when you know that's not really what
you're wanting to know.
You hit him with an ashtray in his head.
Do you ever think about the fact that you
may have killed this guy?
He may have been trying to kill me.
Do you think that he thought he was
trying to rape you or do you think that
he thought it was just a sex game you
It was discussed that I wasn't gonna do
You said I will not be having anal sex?
Right. But then when we were in his
apartment, supposedly that was what I
really did want and he was gonna give it
Did he say, "You know you really want
Yeah and that's what made me decide that
this is not what I need to be doing with
So at the end of the night you did not
feel like you had been involved in sex
that got a little rough? You felt like
you had been the victim of attempted
Yeah because he was hurting me and trying
to make me do something I didn't want to
How hard was his hand on your throat?
It was hard. I think that he thought
since he was gonna give me money he was
gonna do whatever he wanted to do.
When you were having dinner did he seem
sane? Did he seem honest?
More or less.
You didn't have any reason to believe
that he would try to rape you?
Did you file a police report?
No, because prostitution is illegal, so
what was I gonna say? Plus, my father's
a police officer and I just figured
somehow or another he might find out.
Male rape is more common than we think. I
work as a volunteer in a rape crisis
program. Men would show up in the
emergency room and say they were mugged
or assaulted. When hospitals started
asking if they were sexually assaulted,
the percentage of men who said yes went
A police officer who arrested my lover,
called us afterwards because he in fact
is gay and wanted to get to know my lover
Tell me about the relationship between
drugs and sex.
I think the best was on crack cocaine.
Was it the crack or was it the guy you
(except Michael & Patrick)
I think it was the crack.
Why do you think that?
It just gives you a rush. I mean some
people can't do it like that but for me
it worked fine.
Was it only one time of sex on crack?
It was a lot of times.
What's sex on crack like?
It's just like using poppers.
It's a rush.
It makes you horny?
Would you smoke crack while you were
I'd take a hit while somebody would be
sucking my dick...
...or I'd be screwing someone and they'd
take a hit.
There's a difference between getting
stoned and smoking pot.
I only get stoned rarely.
I smoke pot daily.
I only do cocaine now.
It just relaxes me, that's all.
I've smoked pot before and I've tried
other things like crystal.
I know how to regulate it
When I do drugs I have fun.
I could go for a very long time without
Drugs are one of my types of fun right
When I'm over it, I'll be over it.
Would you rather have sex or drugs?
I can't answer that.
I think I would have to give up sex.
If you don't have a goal or a clear
direction, then what direction do you
Heroin has been a big player in my life.
Heroin is typical of what they say.
It boosts your self-esteem.
I see a lot of people who have just
stopped growing and really have more
potential than they take advantage of.
There really is much more that they can
Do you ever give unconditional love and
That doesn't sound very unconditional to
Having a doctorate at times is a little
tough because people get defensive about
their own lack of education, but their
education has only stopped because they
have chosen to let it stop.
You can only imagine when I stopped
heroin, how the brick wall hit me. I felt
so miniscule, I felt so small.
I have my doctorate and I continue to
hide in academia. I'm currently doing
research on a book about gender issues in
the eighteenth century. I spend a lot of
time on my work.
I don't understand why a color has to be
worn, why your hair has to be a certain
way, why your furniture has to be set a
certain way, why water should be drunk a
certain way, why you should write a
So you got your doctorate when you were
I completed my doctorate earlier than
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I had a bad experience in New Orleans.
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Allen plays the crack guy.
It was in one of those places with
booths. This guy lit up a crack pipe in
this booth. It was just like really
disturbing to me. He had a condom on him
and I was sucking his dick and he lit up
and I heard it and I smelled it. And I
got up and I was just like, instant fear,
drugs, AIDS. I mean I always assume
everyone's positive anyway but it just
smacked me in the face. The crack pipe
just smacked me in the face. It just
scared the living shit out of me, and I
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So, I said, "Why don't we try going out?"
And it all evolved from there. It was
easy to be the aggressor with him because
he was shyer than I am. When I would see
him in a social setting I always knew I
could walk up to him and make some
comment that would make him blush.
Ironically, when I would go to bars I was
always the one to let men come up to me.
And I know that sounds conceited when I
say that. What's more ironic is that for
years I always found tops when I wanted
to find a bottom and everyone's else is
complaining that they only find bottoms.
Why did you fall in love with him?
Because he's very intelligent and very
caring and warm and funny and handsome,
um... and I just feel so incredible when
I am with him. I always felt insecure
with him because he really is so
brilliant, and I used to think, "Oh my
God, I can't keep up in a conversation
with him. Why does he want to hang
around with me? He's seventeen years
older than I am." And...
That would make him fifty...
He was actually fifty-one earlier this
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I always joke with my roommate that I
don't want to be older than sixty-five
because I look at older men and the more
I see, the less I think it's likely to be
with someone and to have someone. Who
wants to be the old man walking around
the bar? Who wants to be old and alone?
You'd rather be dead than be that person?
I would unless I find something that
fills that void.
So you wouldn't sleep with older men?
Does age turn you off?
It turns me off sexually.
Do you worry about not being desirable in
a few years?
Yeah because it just happens.
Do you ever think you may become more
desirable as you age?
That's a possibility, but I do not take
comfort in that.
Frank and Patrick come to life, both laughing.
When I was in junior high The Exorcist...
Oh he always tells this story...
The rest come to life and line up to hear the story.
...when I was in junior high The Exorcist
had come out and I had read the book. My
mother had gotten it through her book of
the month club and I snuck it out and I
was reading it, just as I had with
Jacqueline Suzann's Valley of the Dolls
and all the other "adult books." I was
fascinated by The Exorcist, and when the
movie came out I was dying to see it, but
it was rated R and I was too young to get
in. Anyway, there was this whole big
media hype of hiding what Linda Blair
looked like in full make up as the demon,
but somebody in school got this
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...and there were a couple of pictures of
Linda Blair in the demon make-up. The
magazine was Playgirl which at the time
had just come out. Don't ask me who
among these kids got this thing, but
everybody was looking at it. And I'm
looking and I had NO idea what anything
was. You open up to the middle of it and
there's this man with no clothes on, and
I was like, "Wow." And
I'm so naive, I'm
still trying to find the Linda Blair
pictures. In fact, everybody else was
borrowing this magazine and taking it
home to study Linda, and I'm believing
this. That's not what they took it home
to study, we know that now. When it came
my turn and I got to bring it home. I
was outside playing and I came in the
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...and my mother was as white as a ghost.
She had been up in my room and saw the
magazine on my bed.
Now I still didn't know anything, but my
mother said, "Where did you get this?
Thank God your father didn't see this."
In my naivet?, I told her that Linda
Blair's pictures were in there and
everybody's been passing it around cause
everybody was dying to see them. And she
says, "Yeah but look, what kind of a
thing is this and what are you doing and
how did they get this? And who got
this?" She said, "Get that out of this
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So that night in my bedroom, laying on
the floor on my stomach with my legs kind
of up in the air thumbing through this
thing, I start to see all that was
there. Mr. Naive starts to wake up to why
mom got so upset. I'm looking at these
pictures and I'm like, "wow" and I'm
getting really "wow," and the next thing
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...right in my pants. Just from laying
on the ground on the hard floor. I'm
thinking, "I didn't have to go to the
bathroom, how'd I wet my pants?" I
didn't know what it was! That was the
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My parents had never discussed sex with
me and we didn't have any thing in
school. In fact to this day, I'm still
prone to fucking the mattress or the
pillow as opposed to jacking-off by hand
because it happened that way the first
I actually started masturbating before I
could ejaculate. Not realizing what I
was doing, but it sure felt good.
It was wild that I would have an orgasm,
but since nothing would come out, I could
I define sex as someone cumming.
"Fooling around" is not sex. When you
start sucking and the guy cums, or you
start intercourse and the guy cums, or
you jerk off and you cum, that's sex. I
think ejaculation is sex.
I remember one time, I was having sex
with this girl and I faked an orgasm with
her because I just knew it wasn't gonna
work. I mean I've never had a problem
having an erection, but to have an orgasm
It was a very sad thing you know when I
first told her. The only reason I told
her by the way was because she was not
yet pregnant. I didn't have relations
with her. I tried, but I couldn't. I
couldn't ejaculate in her. So I got
nowhere fast. She started to wonder if
it was her. She wanted to go to a doctor
to check herself out. Cause she thought
maybe she was not able to have children.
So you would never have an orgasm?
That's what I'm saying. I knew that she
couldn't possibly be pregnant.
So you're faking orgasms with this woman,
and so she doesn't know why she's not
Right. Then I told her, I couldn't just
let her go on.
So you loved her?
But you cared about her?
You cared about the marriage?
But did you want to change for her, or
did you want to change because you really
wanted to become a heterosexual?
No, I went there sincerely to really try
to affect a change. The therapist told
me because I couldn't consummate my
marriage by thinking about my wife, I
should think about men. And she became
pregnant. That was the only way I could
Well what's interesting is since all my
siblings have children my parents relate
to the grandchildren, but when they come
to visit me we have to deal with each
other, no hiding behind children.
So you have a child?
Four. That's number one, but over a
period of time.
You have four children?
All conceived with you thinking about
That's one thing I really want...kids.
My mother is forty-nine.
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She goes to work at six a.m. and gets off
at three in the evening. She comes home,
takes her smock off, sits down and smokes
a cigarette and has a cup of coffee. She
fixes my dad a sandwich and they sit side
by side and watch television until
evening. She'll wake up in the morning
and do it all over again. Every day of
her life. When my mother dies, I'll
probably end up killing myself. That's
how close I am to her. I can speak to
her about hemorrhoids, about crabs, about
cocaine getting clogged in my nose, about
how Philip and I argued over how done my
steak was. I can speak to her about any
aspect of my life and she will respond
and say she loves me.
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I did what I thought was right, I tried
to get married and I thought I would
change. I really believed that. So if
it comes out as deception, I didn't mean
it that way.
My mother and father have been together
forty-three years. They sleep in
separate rooms, but they're still
I have a fear of commitment. I have this
fear of someone liking me too much and me
not liking them enough and me hurting
them. Then I have the other side of the
coin where I fear too much needing on my
part. Anonymous sex is safe in an
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We are now in a Sex Club. Cast lines up against the back
The majority of my sexual encounters have
been anonymous, faceless...You couldn't
talk to people, you could just barely see
He starts to walk along the back wall cruising the men.
You'd walk through the dark corridors,
and they were lined with guys doing
things I didn't think I could do in front
of so many people. I maybe went there
once or twice but did nothing. Then
finally I got comfortable enough to
actually venture into the crowds.
They all go cruise the audience.
I gave him head. I had been practicing
on dildos for a long time. Through the
years I've jammed myself in ways that I
think would make most guys cringe. I
cringe when I think about what I've done
to myself over the years.
To your anus?
You would suck the dildos?
Yes, to practice...
Were they big dildos?
I tried with smaller ones first and then
I worked up to the Jeff Stryker model.
You start with the five inch dildo and
you end up with the nine inch. It's not
just something you plow into.
I went to jack off clubs. I had gone to
the rambles in the park when I first came
to the city and was first coming out.
But I never liked the whole tea room sex
thing because I think I really saw that
as being very sad and pathetic.
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Why did you see it as pathetic?
I really viewed it as a group of people
that grew up at a time when they needed
to hide who they were. So they'd go and
have the anonymous sex because they
couldn't risk really meeting someone for
fear of their family or their job or...
Some people would be enraged that you
think their lives are sad and pathetic
because they enjoy bathroom sex.
But it is sad. These aren't people who
are open or willing to have a
relationship with someone.
You don't think someone can be in a
relationship and go and have anonymous
sex and enjoy it and have a very happy,
full, content life with a lover?
Love, I totally believe, has nothing to
do with sex. I learned to divide them.
I escort, and I don't love these people
that I fool around with for sex. I love
my husband very much and I love having
sex with him, that's just a plus. You
can have sex with somebody and not love
them and you can love someone and not
have sex with them.
I have never liked having my dick sucked.
Never. To this day I do not like having
my dick sucked. Even by men. I don't
like it. I'm squeamish, I'm like, "Watch
the teeth." I'm just more of a bottom
boy. I just love sucking dick? God, I
live for it. And I love to get fucked. I
think the reason I don't like to top is
just the physical awkwardness of it. For
me to climb on a big Rex Chandler type
would just look ridiculous.
Do you get into scat as well?
I have a very, very minimal interest in
it. Occasionally, what I would do when I
was younger and even now on rare
occasions, is shit in my pants, generally
indoors but even outdoors.
What was the turn on to that?
It was exciting, it was a release,
especially if you really have to go.
How often have you done it?
A couple of days ago...at home. I was
laying in bed doing some paper work. I
had underpants and pants on that I didn't
mind getting wet or soiled. And I had to
go so I just let it go.
Was it a turn on to you? Did you get a
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